Almost 2 year anniversary

The 11th of March is fast approaching. On 11 March 2018 our lives changed forever.

My mom passed after years of battling Alzheimers disease. And it was a battle, not only for her, but for everyone who loved her.
We battled against her memories fading. We battled, trying to accept what this most horrible disease did. We battled our feelings of helplessness as everything that made our mom, our mom, was taken away viciously and without mercy.

I still have her ash, we have not decided where we want to scatter her ashes. She never really mentioned what she wanted us to do with them, she only told us that she wanted to be cremated. My sisters and I will decide together how we will take that final step of letting go, but we aren't in a hurry. It may sound strange, but for now, it brings some peace knowing a part of her is still with us.

I have however decided to do something, for me, before the 2 year anniversary of her death. It's something I never imagined I would want to do. And now, I can't wait.
I will share this big THING tomorrow. Yes, I'm leaving you all with a bit of a cliffhanger, sorry😜.

So come back tomorrow for the surprise...

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